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Friday, May 20, 2016

The "Class" System is alive and well!

I have written before about not really fitting in here at Azalea Trace.  Today, I was told why!   Let me tell you about it.

Every month we have a "Floor Party" where all of us on the first floor of the building we live in, get together, bring snacks, and socialize.  It is a good time and we tell sea stories, discuss daily events and tell jokes.  Everyone has been very nice and hospitable to us, until today.  I was talking to the daughter of a very dear woman who lives on our floor.  This woman is in Hospice and is seeing her final days.  I was trying to engage the daughter in conversation.  She was a Librarian, so I had much to discuss.  She lives in Upstate New York, close to where our Son and Daughter in Law lived, so I had things to discuss there.  She asked me what I did for a living and I told her about my Navy career.  That is when she showed her upper class, "My Daddy is an Officer" attitude!  When I told her I went t work for the Navy as a Civil Servant after I retired she said; "That's how you amassed enough money to live here!"  She said that looking down her nose as if to say, "how bad it is to have Enlisted Trash living here."  I did not let it show, but I was hurt.

Now I know why we have not fit in.  There are three other Enlisted Men living here and all of them hide the fact.  Me, I am either too proud or too stupid to hid the fact that I was a Master Chief Gunner's Mate.  Not to mention the Force Master Chief of the Surface Forces, U.S. Atlantic Fleet.  But, none of these Airedale Officers know what a Force Master Chief is!  No, I am just enlisted trash!!

I really am getting tired of this stuff and since my social filters are about gone, some day I AM going to explode!   But, today, I kept my cool.  And yes, I did tell my wife.  And then  asked her to be cool also.I may have made a mistake believing I could be accepted in "Polite Society".  How could I ever think, the upper crust would accept me, an illegitimate child, raise by people that he was not related too, who grew up in a Blue Collar family, and Enlisted Man, who they only see value as a Head Cleaner, who married well, and had to go to Civil Service to make enough money to scrape up the money to live here!!

I have been hurt by people who thought they were better than me, my entire life!   It will never end because I will not hide who I am or how I grew up.  I am a success story!  I could have decided to be a "Victim" like so many people do.  But I did not.  We are debt free, never late on a bill.  Owned 8 homes in out life together.  We support my Wife's parents in their old age.  I graduated from College with a BA in Human Relations Management, Cum Laude, at 41.  I made Master Chief in 14 ½ years!  I was the Honor Graduated of Class 9 of the Senior Enlisted Academy.  I was promoted to GS 13 and was a Branch  Manager of three different branches.  Not to mention I was the Branch Head they sent on all the tough assignments like the Persian Gulf.  I was the only individual that insisted we send Combat Systems technicians on the USS Cole recovery team, saving $10 million in repairs because we preserved the SPY 1 radar arrays!!

For the most part, I don't like Officers.  Most of them have their heads up their asses.  They think they know everything, but the truth is, if you give them a screw driver or a Meter Lead, they would put their eye out!   Yes, they can fly airplanes, but they can't fix them.   Surface Warfare Officer can drive a ship, but the don't know how the systems work.  I cannot tell you how many times I have been asked on the sound powered phones when the Gun Mount broke; "Can you give ma a ERT?  The Captain wants the know."   Give me break, I just told you it was broke.  I haven't had 5 seconds to troubleshoot the damn thing!  It is a complicated, Electro Hydraulic monster controlled by a Logic Computer.  There are thousands of moving parts that move ammo that weighs hundreds of pounds there decks, to a moving gun mount and a moving gun barrel at 20 rounds a minute!!  Dumb Ass!

So, I have had my "Class System" immersion for the day!   I think I will go shoot myself!  I hate Officers and their kids!!  Snooty brat!!

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Once upon a time, I knew something, and had value...

There was a time, I was the one the Captains and the Admirals came to for honest answers to hard problems.  In a manner of speaking, I was important to the mission.   I knew what I was doing and I knew my Rating and almost everything on the Ship I was serving on.  I knew, in depth, Damage Control, Deck Seamanship, how the Engineering Plant operated, Navigation, Radars, and of course, all of the Weapons Systems.   I have written before about "Hot Gun, Foul Bore" Emergencies that I was the only individual in charge.

Those were good days.  They unfortunately are gone.  Now, I live with a bunch of self-centered retired Military Officers, Professors of Letters, who spent their lives in College, and more Doctors than a good Hospital would have.  All of them think they are the only ones who know anything and that I could  never know anything because I am an Enlisted Man!  They have absolutely NO EARTHLY IDEA what I did in the Navy.  How there served in any Military and have such a low esteem for Enlisted personnel, especially Senior Enlisted Personnel, is beyond me.

But, our Country is being ran, from the halls of the Pentagon, by these little men!!  They make decisions based on their vast experience that is limited to what the read in some class in a College.  These little men still believe America is the sole, strongest, Military in the world.  Boy are we in trouble.  Oh, and the vast majority of these little men vote democrat, lockstep!  They did not even like President Reagan.

I am not foolish enough to think we cane dig ourselves out of the abyss the Progressives have put us in.  And the sitting or should I say, the golfing President has ran every American Officer out of the Military and turned the entire military into a social experiment with LGBT leaders, and little men in pink silk skivvies doing nothing.   And the only real men are trying to screw every straight female left!  What a mess!

When I lived in the Tidewater area and was in constant contact with other Senior Enlisted Personnel, I never realized, or maybe I forgot, how arrogant Officers were.  When I was on the ship, I saw some arrogance,  but most of the command level Officers were team players and respectful of anyone who knew what they were doing.

Now, I am just venting some steam because of a conversation I had with a retired Marine Intel Officer.  He told me he used to work for Secretary Lehman.  So did I!  I briefed him twice a year when I was in my Force Master Chief job.  Hell, I probably had more access to the Secretary of the Navy that that Marine O-6 did!!

Oh well.  Being retired, out of the loop, and important to no one hurts the ego.  It is what it is!

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Today I tried to contact the VA!

My Congressman's Offices is useless as tits on a Boar Hog.  So, I tried to contact the VA, using their supposed helpful Internet process.  That mess alone is enough to drive me to extraction.  They expect me to remember pass words, log in names, Hey!  I have dementia!  I can hardly remember my Wife's name!!

The VA has no telephone number to call and ask about pending claims that I can find.  Why is that?  Because they do not care!!  They just want me to die.  They do have a Suicide line to call.  But I am not sure if they give you instructions as to how TO COMMIT SUICIDE of if they try to talk you out of it.  I suspect, if they are denying your claim, they try to talk you pout of suicide and if they approved your claim, they tell you the best way to kill yourself, quickly!!  Budget restraints you know.

They only need us when they want us to go to war for them!  I quit.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016


Do you want to know why so many Veterans commit Suicide?   It is because no one cares about us!  Veterans are the inconvenient truth that everyone ignores!!  If we call the "Suicide Help Line", we get put on "HOLD"!  That is a true fact that has been proven recently.

My Congressman, Jeff Miller, is the Chairman of the Veteran Affairs Sub-Committee!  And he and his staff have done NOTHING for me in my appeal with the Veterans Administration (VA).

Even what I was in Boot Camp, I was cared for.  My Company Commander cared about me and for me.  He watched out for me and made sure me, and the 74 other men in my Company were fed, given medical attention and were where we were supposed to be.  Now, that I am retired, there is no one who cares!!

I have never felt so worthless, unwanted, and bothersome to the people of the Nation I dedicated 40 years too, in some very dangerous conditions.  But, the VA does not process my claims or appeals in a professional manner.  No instead, my appeal has bee on ignore got 6 years.  Te DAV has helped and they even paid for an attorney to help with the appeal.  Buttons, everything is on ignore.

Veterans are nice to have photographs taken wit if you are running for office.  Then, the Politician washes his hands as to not get contaminated by the plague us Vets carry!!   I actually saw the Mayor of Virginia Beach shake the hands of the Sailor of the Year  and then go DIRECTLY to the Head and wash her hands.  She never even stood close to an Enlisted person all evening.

We commit suicide because we are ignored and treated like we are unwanted and despised.  Everyone in the Government wish we would all just die!!  And some of us do.

Friday, May 6, 2016

I never thought I would get this old!

This is my Birthday Season, as my best friend, Jerry, says.  I never thought I would ever get this old.  Many of my counterparts in age and Military seniority have already passed away.  Some of them, right after their Retirement from the Navy.  Some from accidents, like Master Chief Bobby Scott, and some from disease most likely directly or indirectly caused by their Military service, like Master Chief Harold Wheeler, Master Chief Tim Melody, Master Chief William Vern Van Matre, Master Chief James Andrew Smith, Master Chief Charlie Kamler, and Senior Chief Gene Veldhouse.  There are others that my memory fails on.  But, I remember when they died, and it was way too early.

Some have lived long, productive lives after their Military careers, like Master Chief Tom McKenna, MCPON Del Black,  Chief James Upton,  Senior Chief Morris Lewis, Chief Silas Marshall, and others.  But, with the exception of Tom McKenna, the rest of these men died well before the average age of death for males in the US!  And even Tom died before he was 80!

Death of our friends and family members brings our own mortality very close.   Many of us have friends with serious diseases that will lead to death.   And we watch as they deal with their diseases, knowing we could be next to walk that plank!

The life expectancy of Career Navy Gunner's Mates is much shorter than the life expectancy of others, Enlisted and Officer.  Now, maybe I just do not see the life expectancy of Career Enlisted Men in other ratings like Machinist Mates, Boiler Technicians, or Yeomen.  But, somehow, I think I am right.

Why is this?  It could be the constant sea duty we used to ensure.  It could be the long hours we worked, everyday, week in and week out.  It could be the neurotoxic, carcinogenic fluids we breathed, swallowed, were bathed in, and had forced in cuts.scrapes, and wounds.  Or, it could be the nuclear contamination we were exposed too in the 1960-1990 period.  Whatever it is, we are dying from IT at an increasing rate.

I feel empty because of the loss of these shipmates.  I see my life passing before my eyes when I have dreams and daytime hallucinations involving my experiences with these men.  Unless Jesus returns soon, we will all experience physical death.   I know this, but as I turn another date on the calendar, I realize I have lived about as much as I am going to live.  Most of those who I served with have already passed on.  I miss them and realize we were our own support group.  I miss that camaraderie.  Nothing can replace that.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

250,000 views that keep me going!

Today, this blog went over a quarter million views!   When my wife and neurologist encouraged me to start these two blogs, I never thought so many people would want to read what I thought and wrote. But, here we are at 250k views on the Master Chief's Lair and over 200k views of my Lewy Body Dementia blog.  I am humbled indeed.

Each comment I receive from you, the readers, helps me feel better, decreases my depression, and encourages me to continue.  I especially enjoy remembering my time in the Navy.  Those were the best days of my life.  One thing I have learned living at Azalea Trace.   Those of you who served in any branch of the Military, except the Navy, had a boring time!  And it seems ALL Officers did also.  No one has any Sea Stories, except the Airdales who want to talk about flying airplanes with their hands!  But, no stories about wild nights on liberty, no stories about fixing equipment that went FUBAR in the worst possible timing, and no Sea Stories about the quiet times at sea.  No, I am convinced only Enlisted Men in the U.S. Navy had any fun at all!  And boy did I have fun!

So, as I have said on both blogs before, I will keep writing as long as I can and as long as it helps me.  Please keep those card and letters coming.  And most important, Thank you for being there when I most need you!

Monday, May 2, 2016

Well, here we are!

The Chinese refused a port call to Hong Kong for an American Aircraft Carrier.  The Russians have aggressively harassed U.S. Navy ships in the Med.  The North Koreans have launched long range ballistic missiles from land and now from submarines.  China has built islands in the Sea of Japan and them militarized them.  And now, the Militant Islamic hoards, backed and controlled by the Muslim Clerics in Iran, have broached the Green Zone and trashed the standing, elected, government in Iraq.  It seems America has been reduced to a sniveling wimp!!

This is the results of a weak to non-existent U.S. Navy and poor, even weaker leadership from 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue and Congress.

The aggressor nations know when America is weak.  Hell, a blind man on a galloping horse could see we are the weakest we have been since before World War One!!   But, the fact that makes this even more frightening is the fact that we have lost our manufacturing base!

During World War Two, we built a second to none military machine.  Today, we buy our steel from overseas, our cars, even American names, are made in foreign countries, and we import food, and our medicines are made overseas!  Without a strong Navy to keep the trade routes open, America will not be able to produce anything!

But, the leftists want to have $15 minimum wages, free collage, free health care, and welfare for those who do not want to work!  All of this at the expense of the military budget and especially the capitol costs of shipbuilding.  It truly is a sad state of affairs.

Americans, do not see the truth.  They are blinded by their IPhones, iPads, Virtual Reality Games, Movies, Twitter, electronics sex, and their constant cry for protection zones from bad words.  We have become a Country of pansies.

I have told you before that I do not believe America can or will turn around.  What I have seen in the last weeks verify my statements.  No matter who is supposedly elected, America is finished!!